Simple is Better :]

I have always been a busy body. I HATE being bored ... seriously I literally could die from it. However recently I have found out that it is not being bored that urks me .. it is being BORED ALONE! The past two months have been pretty hard because I've started down a road to self recovery. I have managed to get through the hard times and now I feel like I am standing alone in the middle of a long and narrow road with no one around ... no signs to guide me ... the only thing that I have is myself. Even though this may sound like a bad thing ... I have found the GOOD in all of this :]

First, I am NOT alone. I have God. I have Family. I have ME. I have experienced a lot in my lifetime [and I am only 26yo] and ONLY these THREE things have remained consistent. God has never let me down. He has helped me through the worst of times and has celebrated with me through the best of times. My family no matter what decisions I make or what road I have taken ... they have always been my source of support and strength. I am very blessed to have a family that loves me and doesn't judge me. Me, Myself, and I. I have to admit -- I do tend to talk to myself and I have to admit it HELPS me :]  I love to write and I love to just sit and think about things that go on in my life and how I need to handle them. AND most of the time ... I help myself :]

Second, having this time alone has made me realize what is important in this life. I have made things that don't matter in my life a priority and it has gotten me no where! I have put others feelings in front of mine because I didn't want to make anyone upset or mad at me ... even if it meant I endured the pain. Don't get me wrong, I do care about my friends and the friendships we share, but honestly if we are "Friends" no matter what happens .. we should understand and accept one another for who we are and not for what we can do for each other. Until recently, I have finally accepted that you can't make everyone happy, you can't save every friendship, you will not stay in love with the ones you have fallen in love with, and your number one priority in life should be yourself. Because if you can't make youself happy, then you won't live happily ever after.

Lastly, I have accepted you will never live a perfect life. Nothing is perfect. You just have to make good of what you have because it can always be worse. Wake up everyday with a happy heart and count your blessings. No one is worth your tears only the ones that make your heart happy <3 Every day is a new day and just be happy that you are here to live it :]

-memckee